Hindsight is 20/20
On September 1st, I had an appointment with Dr. Katz, my neuro-ophthalmologist. I still can’t get over that word. When Dan Webster put that one in his big book he must have been very confused. “What the…?” Anyway, Dr. Katz took several measurements of my vision and informed me that the results of the blood test, done on August 10th, was negative.
The long and short of it is that my “vision has plateaued”. Doesn’t that sound nice. What that means is that my vision doesn’t suck any more or less than the last time he saw me. Unfortunately, it also means the June surgery either didn’t “take” or the measurements are in question. Who’s fault is that? Well, that’s a tough one. It would be my lack of focus, concentration or well … it’s behind us now.
My next surgery has been scheduled. Before the rooster crow’s this Wednesday, Connie and I will checking in at OSU Medical Center. I’m not sure about the rooster, but we’ll be there at 6:30. I can remember staying at the Wood County Fair, as a kid, and it seemed like those damn roosters didn’t have a clock at all. If all goes well, I should be home that afternoon.
Just a reminder from my earlier posts, this surgery will allow my double vision to be on the same horizontal plane. In 3-4 months I’ll have another surgery to bring my forward-looking gaze on the same vertical plane. It’s a lot easier to explain if I can use my hands. There is a risk of too many surgeries because of scar tissue, but we’ll cross then bridge when we get to it.
After that comes my frontalis (not a lobotomy and not a whiskey) sling. That’ll allow my right lid to open with the raise of my brow. I’m proof that “good looks” isn’t everything.
All of this hindsight reminds me of how it is to see with my eyes. I know I don’t look the same, based on the confused looks that I get from many kids and even more adults. I like it when people ask, “hey, what happened to your eye?”. In the other people’s defense, they’ve never known me with two good eyes.
Seeing with my eyes sucks and it never doesn’t. But, it’s interesting that my memory of seeing different things is perfect. That is, at least what is in MY field of vision. It doesn’t mater if it’s a kid’s event, a football game or checking out my wife. 🙂 It makes me happy to recall those things and even dream with two good eyes.
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We’ll be praying for you guys, especially Wednesday Brian!
Thanks Matt. I appreciate it.
As I know you will Brian, stay positive on this challenging journey. You were placed on this path for a reason. Prayers are with you Wednesday!
Dave, prayers are always appreciated. Thanks.
Our prayers are with you. You should check out a band called Hem they have a song a couple albums back about seeing thing through your minds eye. Reminded me of your blog post today. Good luck my friend!
As always, I appreciate the thoughts and prayers. Maybe I’ll only see ONE Michigan game this year. 😉
Brian: Just remembered the name of the Hem song. It is called “Lazy Eye That Looks at You.” It is a beautiful, poignant song.
Bob and I are with you sending good thoughts and prayers. I saw a post that said, “You’ve only got 3 choices in life….give up, give in, or give it all you’ve got.” We know the choice you have made, Brian, ….and we’re with you 100%. And here’s another one to contemplate for you, The Dreamer….”Dream deep, for every dream precedes the goal.” (Pamela Starr)
Sue (and Bob)
Thanks for the note. I always like to hear about a quotable quote. I was a poet and didn’t know it. 🙂