In my last post I left you with a Chinese Proverb. “It’s always better to light a candle than to curse the darkness.” I have gone through some pretty dark days during the 20 months. This was not one of them. Today was “All Saints Day” at church. This is a church holiday for those than have “gone” before us. It’s a rather solemn part of the service when the pastor reads the name of all of the people that have departed in the past year.
You have to feel for people sitting there hearing their loved-ones name being read aloud. You have to wonder about those that are departed. Are they happy with the time that they spent on earth? Granted, they’ve all been taken too soon in our minds. But for the time that they were here, did they live life to it’s fullest? Once they’re gone, they’re not really gone. They have had an impact on the world and will continue on in heaven. From the departed’s standpoint, they continue living. Just not here on earth. That’s why the saying and the song that tells us to “live like we’re dying” is wrong. We should be living like we’re going to live forever.
I said that the Chinese Proverb was appropriate but left it to you to draw your own conclusion as to why that was. My reason’s are obvious and otherwise. The “obvious” is the lack of light that comes into my eyes on a daily basis. Some days are better than others. It’s hard to get into things that require vision. Once I get started, if my vision cooperates, it’s almost “normal” – the new normal, anyway. The “otherwise” is a lack of confidence in everything I do. That’s my personal darkness. There are times that others see me for who I am and then there are times that I get “the look”. I know that people don’t mean anything by it, but there’s that curiosity. First on their part and then on mine.
You should know that I had my second eye surgery on October 10th. My follow-up appointment, with Dr. Katz, was pretty straight forward. He’s not satisfied, but indicated that my vision is about 60% of where he wants it to be. This means one or two more surgeries on my eye muscles. Once my eyes stabilized, he’ll work on the lids. After that, I’ll probably get prism glasses to put my vision in proper alignment. My next appointment is November 16th. (evolution, not revolution)
This is the second year in a row that NOT being on that list has had a much greater impact on me. That day will come for all of us. So, why not live while you’re living?